Sunday, November 7, 2010

Well, Well, Well...i felt sorry.

I know some of you knows how to highlight this post But i dun care for now. I will post it for some that knows.

I know you going to N.A next year. But i felt i was so extra to be with you those pass few years when we are together. It seems like i was wasting my time and effort to build up this friendship. As me and you are together for so many year, i was jealous that you write those thing for them yet not for me although we have be together more years than them. I know in the pass i was in wrong and i hated you alot than before. Like day passes day, our hated increases alot. And day passes day, my tears increases. When ever we both quarrel, i really feel like crying. So do you? Really Wishing i day we will get back like the pass. So for me, i choose not to fall tears every min every second. I choose to go with others. But in my heart. i couldnt accept the truth. Words in my mouth are false But words in my hearts, i doesnt have the dare to speak to you the truth. Every time theres something related to you, i would think of the pass and falling tears. I hope to forget everything and wont be hurting myself and increase the hated between us. But Now, you going to N.A i couldnt stops you anymore. I Shall forgives the pass and those pass would become the best memories ever. Do you remember that time during floorball, you cried? I was the person that make you cried by saying those hurting words to you. "" Actually, when i say you cried, i feel like crying too But i tried to control my tears. And asked you what happen.. I say those words cause i doesnt wants to hurt you and me and increases the hated. Last year, you told me you going to N.A and call me to forgives you. BUT THERES NO WRONG IN YOU. IT WAS IN ME! You wasnt the the who saying sorry to me?! ITS ME! That time, i was to proud of myself thinking you are in wrong not me. I could not accept the truth! That time i was helping my mum in the market. And was crying in the car alone. By saying "Why am i so stupid for not going for the outing you invite me?" I'm sorry. Now you are really going to N.A. And i couldnt accept the truth too. Pass time, Whenever i saw you walking alone and been upsets, i doesnt have the dare to walk towards you and ask what have happen? Not by walking towards you, i ask the others beside you, what have happen you quarrel with her? Some said that you started the fight first and give attitude. But i doesnt believe and add more oil in it. Pass time, i was a backstabber By keep changing friends. Cause i couldnt find a friend like you so caring and a really good friend. Whenever i cried, i really hope you was beside me like before counselor me. The start of sec 2 , remember the class declaration? We play true or dare? Than Jie Qi Cried? So we four sit down and discuses about friendship. That time i cried while shuwen keep saying bout me. I couldnt do anything good and crying over there. I felt useless about it. After the uncle come and lock the classroom doors, i walked away and slowly walking behind those classroom asking myself lot of question. And i reached the MRT, you message me "dun be upset, there still lots of time. We could still be friends." i wonder, why its only a friend? Not bestfriends? So, i think that "yeah, it should be just a friend not bestfriend cause you hate me alot more than before." Reached home, thinking of how we played, chat for a whole day long till we sleep? hahas it wont be happening from now on, or maybe forever.

I really hope we would together like the pass.

But accept the truth, Jinger , it wont be happening.


From: Jinger Wong Yun Shuen.
To: California Mui Jia Zhou?
As what you say, Who can control tears?

You will be remain in my heart forever, my friend.

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